Reality.

Oh no, I'm so black right now :0 can't escape from the Sun, no one can. After the basketball match, most of us are sunburned. Some people like it, but not for me I don't. I realize that we gain many haters after a match, win or lose. People are like " That bitch step on my leg and push me" Friendly match konon. Haha. Well, I'm glad it's over, though it's kinda fun playing :), makes you forget everything. 

Anyways, I skipped school today, WISE CHOICE. Haha. Last minute decision though, saw the schedule and the program today is BORING. I mean, tayangan gambar? Seriously. So since no school for me today, I went to renew my passport with my dad. Korea taste so close right now :) Wheeeee. 

Feeling lonely right now. It's sad to know that no one can friend you go yam cha or maybe just grab a drink over a conversation but in the end you end up playing Tetris at home :0 * Sigh* Wish there is a 24/7 friend who will just be there for you, not a stalker of course. But a company right now will just do for me :) And I know it won't be you, tsk tsk. I wouldn't even dare imagine spending 1 second with you, what more a few hours. Right now, those are just memories. I miss those memories :)

When would I truely give up?

*Yikes*

I am so tired today :S feel like collapsing. I stayed to play basketball with classmates 'cause tomorrow we're having a class-to-class competition. Damn. I think I'm gonna suck so bad. Most of us( our class) just knew the rules today, and we always break it. Haha. I think first few minutes I would foul 5 times( or more) and got kick out. We train one day only =.=, they train for years. But win or lose doesn't 

really matter lah, I know I'll be glad when this whole thing is over! IT'S JUST A GAME.

There's so many things I wanted to tell you, especially at that precise moment when an incident happen, but I know I'll have to save it when you call( which seems like forever). At times when you don't call, all those things I'll just have to keep it to myself, for myself to listen. But when you did call, I can't seem to say it out cause it seems like it didn't matter, and my enthusiasm to tell you and memories will just wear. That's why you thought I've got nothing to say. I do, I could have a million stories, it's just that... it's too late

Leave me alone.

I thought I can endure this, I thought I can try. But wow this has gone way too far. Don't people sense it? I mean the hint is so obvious. Sometimes I really wanna be a bitch but I know I can't. There's a line in everything, you've crossed it. Plus I just realize people are so 38 in your life 0.0 Like paparazzi, stalking you. Damn. I don't want this. I saw so many ugly sides of people today, which really creeps me out and pissed at them at the same time. Ugh. And some people just put the blame on you, trying to make themselves look innocent which is so WTF. AND some people just don't think twice before they speak. Don't they know how the listener would felt? I know IQ is important but EQ is too! And all the listener could do is just keep it in their heart and endure the pain. Who the heck knows. Well I can't take it no more. Screw you, I'm gonna let it all out. All these time you're thinking of others, how they would feel and all that, but in return how do they repay you? They give all those shit back to you. And some people really don't deserve our forgiveness, but you would forgive them anyway? Weird huh. A moment of peace and silence would be really good by now.

Where WERE you?

Oomeegosh, nearly forget about my sister's birthday today 0.0 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!


So exhausted :( my eyes are gonna go blind soon. Got a seminar half day today at Yayasan Sabah :S but it was worth it? Yea. I can't say "no" right?The talk was okay lah, Sejarah was the funniest though. I find that most Sejarah speakers are funny0.0. Anyway,the day before, my impression about Yayasan Sabah is that it's a cool and grand place. But after today... *yikes*! That placed is almost count as abandoned if not for the student's presence today. It seems like it's not cared for years, well not that horrible lah but close. I even try went up the Atmosphere Restaurant with my friend, Yap. Out of my expectation, when we reach 18th floor, it was all black 0.0 creepy! Haha. There's a sign says it's in renovation, but that sign also terjatuh to the floor those ah, you  know...... *ehem* ; Why am I even blogging? There's like what... 16 more days to PMR? Ughhh. Told myself to stay away from the bloody computer,tv,handphone..... But then there's always that mini devil tempting you. Last time online konon, at the end also on lah. Pffft. CAN'T WAIT FOR PMR TO END! 

The OSCAR goes to you.

Feel like giving you a standing ovation and a big round applause right at that moment. I don't know why, I just have that feel to. Maybe it's because I saw this coming, telling myself " Yes,you got it right". It just feels like all this while you were acting in front of me,like it's your stage; hypocrite, talking lines written in a script, never real. And finally you end your show, *claps* Just that your ending was kinda lame though, 2 lines.....cheezy don't you think? And today it's like "to be continue" ,second part of the story. Just that I don't know did you read your words off from a script like before. Don't say what you don't mean.Cause some people just fall for words so easily. 

Lost.

Sorry for your lost. People will just leave you in a blink of an eye, before you could say goodbye, before you can say how much you love them. Hope you'll make it through, keep holding on pal :) And may his soul rest in peace.

酸甜苦辣

即使伤心 结果还是自己担,

那只是代表快乐不再那麼简单,

那只是因为悲伤从来 都不会有答案.

也许把泪滴在琴上,

所以我有了歌能唱.

拉扯的爱 徒增结局的难堪,

 美丽的故事都有遗憾.